I really have nothing to write.
I quit my study.
Completely a trash.
Have no job.
Try so much to not kill myself.
Eat a lot of pills to calm myself down.
Try to art but I'm f*cked up.
Try to sell my art but it useless.
I seriously try so much to keep alive.
Try to not overthink.
Try to not off myself.
Try to not be negative.
But I don't think I can.
I started this year with cutting.
Then cut again.
Because this is the only thing that make me stop me from suicide.
I know everyone will talk about God
I don't think it work for me.
I kinda at my limit.
But I'm still try to live my life.
P/s : I'm not an attention seeker.
I just want to write thing down.
Not for everyone to read.
But for myself.