Hey
What's up
I don't really know what to share here.
I actually have a lot thing to write but I don't know
I don't feels like want to share
Most of time, when I kinda blank, dunno what to write
I will upload a random picture
and write something about it.
I'm really complicated and I know it
I know people don't get it
I know people can't understand it
I know people can't stand it
I know
But I also know I can't do anything about it
That's me
(Should I say sorry ._.)
Yes, I have too many feelings when I'm depressed.
Its like every feelings came at the same time
and kick and punch and cut my head off
and I just like staring at them
and doing nothing.
I can act like I'm happy when I with my family or my friends or strangers
Like I have this switch in my brain
I just switch it on to make people think that I'm really happy.
I have nothing wrong in my life, not a problem, not anything bad
Just so perfect.
I don't want others think I'm not okay
because its takes forever to tell them that why I'm not okay
What I feels, what I did
Bla bla bla
This is what happened between me and my ex.
I hide every emotion in my heart and it become my truly habit
But the problems is
hope my ex understand me
Understand my silence
I hope they understand by looking at me and try to read me
But the best about not telling others what you say is
Its will become your secret forever.
I thought that way.
I read Hlovate's novel.
All of his novel except Anthem because I feels so bored reading them
So I just not read it
I'm sorry for that
And I love this novel so much (in the picture)
Contengan Jalangan.
It makes me almost mad because its perfect
The best thing about this novel is no love.
Its 100% focus on the main characters and all of them is a man.
Its make me truly happy
Yay
Wow
This is so freaking deep.
Deeper than an ocean.
No wtf I'm a 10
This is for you, guys ❤
I think its for me
You're welcome
Hahahh
Okay
I just maybe wanna share my scar.
I don't want this to be an issue for others to think that I used this picture
to make someone sad or depressed or I'm an attention seeker or something
Hell no
I don't need an attention.
If you want to judge, go for it.
I don't mind.
By the way, I scanned it for fun.
Yep, its really fun.
I scanned almost everything.
My cats, my face and everything.
Okei, that's all.
Bye
your story remind me about my ex. your character, kinda similar to him. anyway, looks like you have lots of problem and you're in the state of depression. i know that i shouldn't mind your business and may not understand what you've been through. i just want to say that, all problems that come to you don't come for no reason. lie down your body, take a deep breath, close your eyes and try reflect back yourself. insha allah, that would help you in finding solution. best of luck.
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