I really have nothing to write.
I mean
Nothing happen.

I quit my study.
Completely a trash.
Have no job.
Try so much to not kill myself.
Eat a lot of pills to calm myself down.
Try to art but I'm f*cked up.
Try to sell my art but it useless.

I seriously try so much to keep alive.
Try to not overthink.
Try to not off myself.
Try to not be  negative.

But I don't think I can.

I started this year with cutting.

Then cut again.

And again.

Because this is the only thing that make me stop me from suicide.

I know everyone will talk about God
Or parents
maybe future.

I don't think it work for me.

I'm sorry.

I kinda at my limit.

But I'm still try to live my life.

P/s : I'm not an attention seeker.
I just want to write thing down.
Not for everyone to read.
But for myself.

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  1. Me too. I quit study. I have no job. My online business is going no where. I am so screw and feel so lost about my future. But hey, just hang in there okay? :) I will not talking about God or family or anything. I just ask you to hang in there. Maybe cutting yourself will make you feel better, just for a bit. I won't stop you but here me, you will be okay. Idk why I'm saying this but just hang in there. :)

  2. bro kuat bro.. :( sabar hadapi semua ni.. semoga allah tunjuk jalan keluar untuk masalah bro.. aameen..



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